Because you are not him

feeling sad about the way you act lately so I open the pictures file and look at those tons images of us ... silly pictures... stupid face... and beautifully captured moments... I remember you said you will always love me no matter what.... I also remember that you said out of 10 my annoying level is always 10 but you don't mind... it feels just like someone turn on a light in my head, looking back at those pictures made me realize that the tidy, calm, success, and happily married man who act guarded around me is not my close friend. My close friend, is a man with curly long hair, wearing casual clothes, driving an old messy car, a single man who love to tease me to the level that I want to drown him in the river. So, there is no need for me to be sad! Because you are not him.

To have something halfway is harder than not having it at all

I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we really don't even have. Some of us say we'd rather have something than nothing at all, but the truth is... to have something halfway is harder than not having it at all.
~lesson learned in life

Be that girl

Be that strong girl that everyone knew would make it through the worst, be that fearless girl, the one who would dare to do anything, be that independent girl who didn’t need to rely on anyone but herself to make it, be that girl who never backed down

~ lesson learned in life

From Where You Are - Lifehouse

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you

So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

How Can I Not Love you- Joy Enriquez

How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

Half a World Away by Secret Garden

You're half a world away
Standing next to me
It seems that every day
I'm loosing you almost invisibly
Though you are near
I can't reach that far
Across to where you are
And so you stay
Just half a world away

And I would cross
The universe for you
What good would it do
If you weren't even there?
Till you return
And untill your way is clear
I will be here
Not half a world away

You're half a world away
And no one is to blame
If love outlives its day
And turns into an ember from a flame
I love you as before
Till words will be nomore
Till I can't find a way
To where you stay
Just half a world away

You're half a world away

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You are your own master

“Human potential is the same for all. Your feeling, "I am of no value", is wrong. Absolutely wrong. You are deceiving yourself. We all have the power of thought - so what are you lacking? If you have willpower, then you can change anything. It is usually said that you are your own master.” ~ Dalai Lama

Because indifference hurts more than angry words

Just say what you mean and mean what you say. Don’t expect someone to read your mind, and don’t play games with heads or hearts. Don’t tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better than lies. Don’t be cold to someone you care about, because indifference hurts more than angry words. 

 

from lesson learned in life

People in Your Life

In your life you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.
C.S. Lewis

Dear Heart

Dear  Heart,

Fall when you are ready not when you are lonely

- unknown

Don't Change but Improve

Never change who you are because somebody says you should and never change because you think you should. In life, we are all destined to come across a situation where it will be tempting to pretend to be someone we are not.
I want us all to resist this – no matter how enticing it may seem at the time – it will always turn out badly. You are who you are and why should you pretend to be any different? Believe in yourself no matter what. My only advice is that if you do think you should change – don’t think of it as change – think of it as improvement. Never try to be something you’re not – instead, be something you want to be

 

Learn from life 

Don't ever let anyone break your soul

Don't ever let anyone break your soul. You have to stand on your own two feet and fight. There are those who would do anything to see you fall. Never give them the satisfaction. Hold your head up high. Put a smile on your face and stand your ground - unknown

Don't interupt my performance

from just feeling good

I will learn

You said you love me, but somehow I start to doubt it now. It just too easy for you to leave me like this. You said this is a great opportunity for me to learn how to be independent. Such a silly thing to say. You said I should learn how to be a good listener. I will learn to be one but I will also learn to never share my life with anyone else again. How foolish I am to put you so high in my priority list while it seems I never be more than just a mere option for you.

ANGGUN - SAVIOUR (TRANSPORTER 2 VERSION)

Somewhere between my sleep 
Somewhere beneath my skin 
In places I can't see 
Something is known to be a sin 

Hiding inside my eyes 
Burning from deep within 
Something that needs a lie 
Trying to turn into a sin 

Rescue me before I lose control 
Rescue me from this fire in my soul 
There's only you who can stop me from falling 
I need a saviour, need my saviour 

Rescue me before I lose my head 
Rescue me from the sight of regret 
Cause only your love can stop me from wanting 
I need a saviour, you're my saviour 

Knocking behind my door 
Asking to be let in 
Something I have ignored 
Wanting to be a sin 

It's been around for so long 
And waiting to begin 
I know that it's so wrong 
Can't let it be a sin 

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The time is ticking

The time is ticking. Whole day texting, IMing till 4 am, soon all will be inappropriate. You face it calmly. Me? sadly. You have her. Me? alone. Here I am cheering one of the greatest moment in your life, preparing special present for your day and mourning for my loss. Training my self not to reach the phone and send you tons of messages when something cross my mind. Looking to the pop up window contain your last night offline messages, telling my self over and over "do not send a new one". The time is ticking.

Special one

I know you love me. You say it over and over and I believe it. I just wish one in a time of your blissful life with her you will remember me and miss our time together. As you know, I love you with my own weird way. So please do not forget me because I will not forget you ever. You are special for me and will always be.

~Last Dance~ by [person unknown]

Would you rather know the truth?
Even if it hurts you

So here we are
Can't believe out song is fading out
Thought we would dance like this forever
Now every single note is breaking down
Till there's no sound

When I'm choking on the thought of this
You broken up the next part of us
For once was it worth it?
Cause when the music ends
You won't be seeing me again,
And then you know if it was worth it

You were innocent, till I proved you guilty
Even though it kills me,
The truth is better then the lie
No going back, I've reached my final verdict
You had my heart and hurt it,
But I won't let you see me cry

This is our last dance...Our last dance

So take my hand
Follow me down to the floor right now
Only have half of a song left to go
I'm not even angry for what you've done
I'm only sad I have to let go

Would you rather know the truth?
Even if it was hurting you?
Could you say goodbye
If you knew that it was right?
If you knew that it was right...


(Thanks to Catalina for these lyrics)
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Be consistent please

Okay, you mad at me. I am not only not your best friend anymore but not even a friend. You asked me to leave you alone. I'm sorry if I still try to reach you. But if you really want me to leave you alone why didn't you just ignore me when I asked "are you still upset?" Why did you send me a messages to remind me to leave you alone few days after I sent you one? Why did not you reply it directly? I still want to be your friend so I try to have you back. You do not want to be my friend so ignore me, maybe some day I will stop. But if you act like this, I will think that despite all of those cruel words that you had thrown at me, you still want me in your life even as an enemy. Please for the first time in your life be consistent. 

And you said you love me

I never expect that we can be friend like this forever, gender is matter. I know the time is coming when simply texting each other will be inappropriate. But to end it like this? saying it so casually? asking me to stop telling you things? asking me to find someone else? and here I am reread all of the messages where you said you love me always

Is it were now?

my existence in your life will be no more than a haze moment in your memory and here I am siting alone and replaying all of our moments over and over again. We are best friend or is it were now? I don't want to understand why we can't stay the same. You said you care but why is it so easy for you to leave me? Ah yes how stupid I am while I sit here alone you have others to share your life with.

Why do I quit?

at the beginning it might all jokes, but when you keep make fun of me and act like it is impossible for me to do all of those things right, unfortunately I start to believe it. so please don't ask why do I quit?

I didn't mean ...

I didn't mean to make you hold me
I didn't mean to get so lonelyI didn't mean to say all this to you   Lyric of I didn't meant to make you mine (Nina)

Time to find someone else

She asked him, in the next few days what should she do when she want to text him about some silly things. He said "just text your sister or post it in your blog". He also said "text someone else" or "find some new friends"

She

she's not the type of girl to wait by the phone. she won't cry; she knows it'll get her nowhere. she'll laugh a lot & often. and she'll live her own life. she'd like you to be a part of it.. but she'll do just fine without you.

- awwpoo.

Old, Weird and Ugly

Old, weird and ugly but he said he love me as the way I am. I saw her picture so young, normal and beautiful. He love her differently.

Just say it

It seems that my never ending questions and blabbering are regarded as annoying things for you now. If you were busy, or it was not a good time for me to bugger you, just say it, no need to ignore my question or being blunt and showed a relief when I started to realize how annoying I was..

And he said

& he said, 'I'll love you forever.' 

She smiled and said, "Just warn me when forever starts to end."

- awwpoo.

ANGGUN - ONLY LOVE (OFFICIAL)

Everyone playing roles each day and night
Searching for a missing piece
Time can always tell the truth
And mask the face of a lonely heart

Thinking eyes wonder what they really see
Dreams of gold or glory?
Something out there to believe
To tell the tale through the night

All i’m looking for is only love
There is only love that i need
What i’m looking for is only love
There is only love that i seek

Nothing is worth fighting only love
There is only love that makes me bleed
Nothing is worth living only love
There is only love that makes me breath

Wondering and like everybody else
Visualizing a sign
Trials and errors still abide
Just hope that it won’t hurt too bad

Wait and see feed this patience on my mind
Leave it there until he comes
Cause someone’s out there i believe
Has a missing piece of my heart

Makes me breath 

It’s only love
There’s only love 

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.Net

The things he told me

He told me that he love me
He told me that he is my friend
Then he told me that he is a liar

Isn't it funny?

Isn't it funny that your heart can be broken by someone that was always pretending?

Funny how your friends can make you feel better about any situation.

Funny how when something bad happens, it's all you can think about?

Funny how bad we think we’ve got it, compared to others who have it worse.

Funny how no matter how much we have, we’re never thankful.

Funny how we can have so many friends, but if we fight with one, life sucks,

Funny how your best friend can hurt you even more than your worst enemy can?

Funny how no matter how hard we try, life will never be perfect,

Funny how many times we can be hurt the same way, and how much more it hurts.

Funny how one person can make you feel pretty even on your worst days

Funny that no matter how much you like someone, if nobody thinks you should be with them, you give into peer pressure.

Funny how on rainy days it’s so much easier to smile,

How one fake friend, can ruin a life.

Funny how your best friend can become your worst enemy with one mistake.

- Katie
boardofwisdom.com

Never tell it

"Never tell your problems to anyone 20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them"

- Lou Holtz