All of those disappointed faces over my decision. All of those endless "why oh why..." All of those lectures... Honestly I can't say this is the right thing to do.... I even can't say I'm at peace with it...  But I do pray and have to believe that it will turn out for the best

Simfoni Hitam Sherina ( Lirik )

Malam sunyi ku impikanmu
Ku lukiskan cita bersama
Namun s’lalu aku bertanya
Adakah aku di mimpimu

Di hatiku terukir namamu
Cinta rindu beradu satu
Namun s’lalu aku bertanya
Adakah aku di hatimu

T’lah kunyanyikan alunan-alunan senduku
T’lah kubisikkan cerita-cerita gelapku
T’lah kuabaikan mimpi-mimpi dan ambisiku
Tapi mengapa ku takkan bisa sentuh hatimu

Bila saja kau di sisiku
‘Kan ku beri kau segalanya
Namun tak henti aku bertanya
Adakah aku di rindumu

Tak bisakah kau sedikit saja dengar aku
Dengar simfoniku
Simfoni hanya untukmu….

T’lah kuabaikan mimpi-mimpi dan ambisiku
Tapi mengapa ku takkan bisa sentuh hatimu

Am I falling?

Getting attached to you... I'm afraid now.... what should I do if it isn't just a simple crush on? I don't want to fall in love with you... Not yet... Not now...

Understanding

Happiest couple in the world never have the same nature, They just have the best understanding of their differences ~ Mohammad Abbasi

Mocca - Me and My Boyfriend

I share my dreams and all my stories
I don't think I need my diary

Jealous

Get jealous over your past... Ridiculous! Ridiculous! But I can't help it....

Do I Like Them?

from here

Just don't look back

from here

The Right Lessons

from here

Wrong Relationship

from here

Love and Marriage

A student ask a teacher, "what is love?"

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question,

go to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go through first row, he saw one big paddy,

but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later.

Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him.

Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field,

he start to realise that the paddy is not as big as the previous one he saw,

he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.

So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.

The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a

better one, but when later you realise, you have already miss the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question,

go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the corn field,

this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake,

when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy,

and come back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look

for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one

you get.... this is marriage."

got it from my friend's email

Cigaret in your pocket

A pack of cigaret in your pocket...
You told me that you stop smoking already, For me
A lie

Wondering
All those sweet things that you told me before
Lies?

I'll Hold the Door

 from just feelin' good

Love my self enough to let you go

one at a time

from Lessons Learned in Life

Learn to let go

from Lesson Learned in Life

Go Ahead and Tell Them

And now when all is gone, there is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible

~Impossible-Shontelle lyric

Out of Reach

Knew the signs wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, Couldn't see
We were never Meant to be

Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, Couldn't see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

But now I'm so confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, Couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Out of reach, So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me

sung by Gabrielle

I hate my self more

I hate you
yes we broke up but you didn't need to rub it on my face by patting her hand in public, and ignoring me

I hate you
for calling me after that and asking how I feel

But I hate my self more than I hate you
For letting you know that you've hurt me

Don't change but do improve

from : Lessons Learned In Life's Page

Sweet Nothing

sweet nothing
he whispered
sweet...
nothing....
she was a fool
she is a fool
she never learn...
she never learn...

eyes-on-leuser: time for action! Save The Forest

It is an unusual post of me.
But if you somehow stumble on it please help us to save our forest.

eyes-on-leuser: time for action!: 
The forests of Leuser and all animals we've been showing you on the Eyes on Leuser site are seriously threatened right now by a ridiculous plan of our government. 

Irony

Ironic is when your mobile ringed and you were wishing that it was your boyfriend at last remember that he had not contacted you for the last few days but found out it was your ex texted that he miss you...

Is the price too high?

"It’s nice to have a break from being completely and utterly single, but only you will know when the price you’re paying for that is too high"
~ Greg Behrendt and Liz Tucillo

HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU IF HE DOESN’T WANT TO MARRY YOU: Love curescommitment-phobia.

Chapter 7: HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU IF HE DOESN’T WANT TO MARRY YOU: Love cures commitment-phobia.
•There is nothing wrong with wanting to get married. You shouldn’t feel ashamed, needy, or “unliberated” for wanting that. So make sure from the start that you pick a guy who shares your views for the future, and if not, move on as quickly as you can. Big plans require big action.
•You are allowed to have aspirations for your future and to know whether the relationship you’re in is going to take you closer to those aspirations or be the demise of them. No amount of money in the world can buy that away from you.
•Don’t spend your time on and give your heart to any guy who makes you wonder about anything related to his feelings for you.
•Don’t let him make you feel stupid about wanting to feel loved.
•Guys said they would have no problem marrying a woman who they were positive was the love of their life. “What kind of knucklehead has a problem marrying the love of his life?”

Never Chase

from here

Walk Away

Loneliness is not the worst

Nothing is worse than longing for someone who doesn’t want you. Even loneliness is better, because with loneliness you at least have hope and possibility and imagination.

From: HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys” by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tucillo

Give Up

Sometime you have to give up on people. Not because you don't care, but because they don't
~unknown

The one who makes me smile

Never fall in love with someone who treats you like you are ordinary
~ Oscar Wilde

Don't deserve

Hug

Ignorance

Ignorance is a bliss. I wish I never ask. I wish I never know.

Be Happy for No Reason

Be happy for no reason, like a child. If you are happy for a reason, you are in trouble because that reason can be taken from you
~ Deepak Chopra

Simple Life

from lesson learned in life

Because they are not that person anymore

From Lesson learned in life

Honestly

from Lessons learned in life

It is better to be alone

It is better to be alone then being with someone who makes you feel alone
~Unknown