Dear Diary by Mocca

Dear Diary,
Let me tell you about my story,
I know it's rather sad,
but that's the way I feel..

Dear Diary,
I don't know if this is right or wrong,
Started thinking of leaving him,
But I'm afraid it might hurt him..

All I want is for everything in the right place,
So everyone is happy,
Is it too much to ask for?
All I want is for everything in the right place,
So everyone is happy,
Is that too much to ask for?

Dear Diary,
Strong is not exactly the right words,
Started thinking of leaving him,
But I'm afraid it might hurt him..

All I want is for everything in the right place,
So everyone is happy,
Is that too much to ask for?
All I want is for everything in the right place,
So everyone is happy,
Is that too much to ask for?

Dear Diary,
Strong is not exactly the right word,
I don't know what to do now,
Confusion is all over.. me...

Take That - Patience

Patience sung by Take That

Just have a little patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop.

Just hold me close inside your arms tonight
Don't be too hard on my emotions.

'Cause I
Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong
Believe me I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me.

'Cause the scars run so deep
It's been hard but I have to believe
Just have a little patience 
Just have a little patience

Have a little patience
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
Just try and have a little patience 

Total Eclipse of The Heart by Bonnie Tyler

Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes

Turnaround bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever

And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong
Together we can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround,
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes

Turnaround bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever

And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong 

Together we can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround,
Every now and then I know you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround,
Every now and then I know you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround,
Every now and then I know there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround,
Every now and then I know there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do

Turnaround bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever

And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Eleven Hints for Life

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying. 

- Unknown
www.boardofwisdom.com

A fool

I know,
I always know
but still

it  hurts
every single time I had been proven right

when will I stop wishing that I was wrong
fool me

most of the time

most of the time
I used to hate you

you, who always said that you care
but never realized how bad I had been hurt until I told you
but then, you belittle it...

everything I did was never good enough for you

You used to said
I had to do this and that
I should not do this and that

I had to follow everything that you told me to do
or I would never be a decent woman
and you did this because you cared

most of the time
I hate you
for making me feel useless
for making me feel unworthy

Now
you have her

Now you tell me everything I do is fine
I can do anything that I want to do
I can be anything that I want to be
because I am perfect as the way I am

Now
I hate you more than ever

when love goes on....

"We are tormented because love goes on.... not because it goes away....." (Il Mare)

When we are lost

"Apparently in life... we end up being like a lost child, sometimes. The more we struggle, the least likely we find our way.  It can be very frightening, because everyone around us would look like an enemy. But, although we may think we are all alone in this world, the truth is when we do get really lost, we have no other option... but to wait for someone to find us... Because.... the person who cares will definitely come" Kyohei Takano_PGE

Sometime...

Sometime... When I say "I'm okay.", I want someone to look me in the eyes..., hug me tight... and say "I know you're not"
Unknown
(boardofwisdom.com)

Optimism, Pessimism and Realist

"The pessimist complain about the wind; the optimist expects it to change; the realist adjust the sail" 
- William Arthur Ward

Heather Nova - Gloomy Sunday

once more

I smile

I laugh

I joke around

I am not pretend to be happy

because I AM

but...
sometime...
just sometime...

I am sad... 

angry... 

tired.... 

in love.... 

or... 

broken.... 

then...

I will go
to weep

to scream
to heal

till I'll be that woman 

who proudly wear her heart on her sleeve

once more